Only Chance Is Giving Up

Annual report time!

To recap: this quirky business started out as the Cat Blanket Project. The Lovely Georg, Ceiling Cat Remember Her With Fishy Treats, asked friends to knit or crochet blankets for animal shelters, which I did. But then people from all over – possibly including you – sent me yarn in large boxes; other agencies/organizations asked for yarny help. So! You trusted me with art supplies. This is what I did with them in 2014, in 2015, in 2016.

After last year, my priorities shifted. In February, a friend mentioned he wasn’t writing his dissertation because when he was at home, he couldn’t finish anything. I thought, ‘Every night, I sit on the couch and work on my projects.’ He said he could never take online classes because he needed the in-person pressure to get work done. I thought, ‘Sometimes I’d rather chew off my foot than go to class.’ The further thought occurred that taking online classes at the unnamed university where I work would mean sitting on the couch at night and reading about art. How bad could that be? If this worked out, it had real potential. I might actually finish a freaking degree.

To test this theory last summer, I took a class called Feminist Practices, read interesting stuff, saw an absolutely great movie, wrote a whole bunch and panicked each time I didn’t understand the technology. In the end, I got an A, and registered for two more classes for the fall semester, in which I also earned As. As you might imagine, this cut into my crocheting time in a big way. That turned out to be genius when the cat shelter I’ve been sending blankets and toys to had so many extra they were sent to a different shelter, where – hooray! – they were needed. The shelter sent a thank you note!

Don't bust an ankle.

Sometimes we plan, and our plans like concrete crumble. Or cheese, but cheese that crumbles.

What did I actually accomplish? This year, I sent 25 blankets and 35 toys to the cat shelter in NY State. Thank you for trusting me with yarn! Cats will be warm and have toys! Since I seem to have overwhelmed the tiny shelter, I will look around this year to find a local group that needs blankets and toys.

Last year, I joined the felt-tip army for PostcardsToVoters.org’s Democratic Get Out the Vote campaigns. As I said in last year’s book report:

[2018] was a crucial year in the history of our country and I started writing postcards to overcome my despair. Writing each postcard was an act of desperate hope in the beginning, and then the candidates I was writing for began to win races. I won’t lie. I needed them to win. I needed them to win enough that I wrote 405 postcards last year, putting a crimp in my 2018 crocheting schedule and making my hands, which don’t work well on a good day, feel like reheated crap.

Good news, Poor Impulsives! My hands now work a little better. Though I have been limited for a couple of decades now to writing no more than a sentence at a time by hand, writing a sentence at a time is brilliant for writing postcards! In 2019, I wrote 2,330 #postcardstovoters. My favorite campaigns were for Vote By Mail efforts in Florida because I’m goddamn sick and tired of reading accounts of overarmed assholes turning up at polling places to intimidate participants in participatory democracy.

If you happen to be disgusted with current events and inspired to spend more time at the post office, go to Postcards To Voters and enlist in a resistance effort with real results. The presidential election of 2020 is the single most important election of our lives. Now is the time to find your preferred form of activism and push.

Seriously, now is the time. A year from now, show me your annual report.

 

 

Of A Rag Doll Dance

Three is a magic number. Yes, it is!

Happy New Year! And no one is happier than decorative cabbages, the ingenues of the winter landscape world. They’re full of natural beauty, even without mascara. Oh, to be 23 again!

Change is in the air! I’m bringing all my annual projects to their conclusions and sending out packages, so the blog’s annual report should come sooner than later. My studies will shift this year, as I’m planning to focus on core requirements for a degree, as opposed to studying anything I fucking wanted to, and there might be math. I am very bad at math and, when other people talk about numbers, I hear, “Meow meow meow – meow – meow!” That’s also why I’ve had an accountant do my taxes since the eighties and try to never talk to him. He is nice, though! Should I mail him tuna?

In other news, our living arrangements may change since my father-in-law is 90 and stubborn and his wife may be terrible. Plenty of people would say I am terrible, so your mileage may vary.

I might be terrible, we cannot be sure. That does not mean other people are not engaged in other kinds of terriblosity we cannot see from a distance; in this case, from two states away. Do I have reading glasses for that?

No, the other way!

This is perpendicular to my house. Also to my street. And several of my squirrels.

In my family, circumstances cannot continue as they have, so stuff is definitely going to change. For the better? For the worse? Nobody is that kind of genius. Suspense is killing you! Or me. It’s hard to tell us apart sometimes.

So Happy 2020! Are you sure you’re you?

 

 

When the Line’s Been Signed

I could probably use the exercise.

Riffraff like you and me use the side door. Also: the walk’s shorter, so I’m not sad about that.

Tomorrow is my grandson Panky’s twelfth birthday. That seems outlandish to me, but there we are. Tempis, as my grandmother Edith said through clenched teeth to dawdling children, is fugiting.

It dawned on me recently that I am approximately the same age Edith was when her husband died. She stopped traveling, stopped going to big events, shows and parties. I was 15 and couldn’t understand it. I understand it even less now. Why didn’t she wait a decent interval and go full Hello, Dolly? Surely there was a Horace Vandergelder out there waiting for fabulous her, and I’m sorry she didn’t look for him.

Panky’s a bright kid, and he doesn’t think about me much unless he’s actively trying to circumvent my house rules. I think about him a lot, in part because he might be a little too bright. A friend is plugged into the Jeopardy! hive mind, so I asked him what those folks recommended as gifts for smart kids. They came up with a few ideas, like Raspberry Pi. He’ll learn about computers by building one, and this is good because he talks ad nauseum about how his generation is all about technology. Yes, I told him I was a teen all about technology when blowdryers were brand new, but he did not seem impressed. That’s because he didn’t grow up in his grandmother’s beauty salon in the seventies, where matronly ladies sat under furniture-size hair dryers, thumbing through celebrity gossip magazines, for whole Saturday afternoons. Stylists smoked Virginia Slims and emptied cans of hairspray into mile-high coifs. It’s a miracle salons didn’t explode six days a week. Obviously, I’m anxious for Panky to outsmart our dumb history.

Twelve. Being twelve is awful. It’s one of those years of your life you’d rather forget. How do you make it better for someone else?

 

 

I Went In Seeking Clarity

You can't keep us apart. Our love will endure!

Please avoid being in this river. For one thing, it’s December in North America and you’re a mammal. For another, your submarine is backordered and prone to grounding in the shallow spots. Years ago, the river used to freeze solid and we joked that between semesters, math professors would throw themselves off this bridge and get stuck in the mud instead of drowning. After the county dredged a few times, nobody makes that joke anymore. We just hope math professors pre-ordered their submarines.

Looking Over the Edge

For over a year and probably more like two, the blog’s hosting service has sent me odd letters and charged me for disk space overages. At least a couple of times, Siobhan and I tried to figure out what the hell the hosting service was on about, but we didn’t get anywhere. Eventually, the fees started to get weird. It wasn’t a lot of money, but the letters made it sound like deleting sections of the blog was my only hope. I didn’t write a word or post many pictures, and I moped about it. Yesterday, I called up the service and asked the representative to explain it to me using very tiny words.

Permanently mothproofed!

Unlike me, some things ain’t never coming back.

Eventually, I understood that 14 years of blogging takes up 537 mb (or MB, ya got me there) of space in an account budgeted for 500. I asked for the next size up and the hosting service gave me 2000. To celebrate, here is another picture.

Such festive. So crap.

Festive crap.

So I’m back now. Took two classes this fall at the unnamed university where I’ve worked for 33 years. Last Sunday, I turned in my last assignments and now I want to do nothing but sit under a pile of cats and sip an adult beverage through a swirly straw. And blog. I’m gonna blog.